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Cool From A Distance
05:06
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Someone told me that you’ve been sick
I want to call you and tell you I hope that you get better
It didn’t seem appropriate
Given that the last time we were together
I told you that I needed space
I guess that we all make mistakes
So now you can watch me
Die slowly
I’m cool from a distance
Kill that thing inside me
That says that I should be something
Die Slowly or
Die Swiftly
Just kill it
Just watch me
I don’t know why I tell
All these partially true stories
I can’t find the real version or even the made-up version of me
And if you dig deep enough you might find something darker than the afterlife
You’ll see that everything is fine
Die Slowly
I’m cool from a distance
Kill that thing inside me
That says you should be happy
Die Slowly
I’m cool from a distance
Kill that thing inside me
That says you should be happy
Die Slowly
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2. |
Scorpio Sister
03:08
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Your father from birth wasn’t there for you
It might be false but it sounds like truth
The weight of his anger sharply on your broken back
Now you're prone to conflict and you overreact
So your Scorpio Sister stepped in
With the grace of an elephant
Always stomping around
When your father would shout
Your Scorpio Sister
I medicate in traditional ways
Burn out fast and incinerate
Not a single time has it ever turned out right
So I exist in between flames
Like your Scorpio soulmate in the hall
Never another drop of alcohol
I’m reliving the past
And I'm honoring that
Your Scorpio sister stepped in
With the grace of an elephant
I don't feel up to it
I don't feel up to this
I don't feel up to this
I don't feel up to it
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3. |
The Notebook
03:10
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When I was just a kid
I’d watch the notebook all alone
I wanted to be in love
I wanted to build a home
Now everything I have
Is everything I’d always wanted
Why am I still searching
When my hands are saying “want less”
A wrap-around porch
Squeaking floorboards
A tire swing
That felt like everything
I guess I wanted fiction
Not reality
Now I’m learning the piano theme
Hoping that might do something
I mean, of course, I love you I always have I'm just frustrated
Hyper fixated - Allie Hamilton
I’ll be here forever
Always have
In one way or another
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4. |
Don't Overthink It
05:12
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I can’t ignore this
Gotta face it head on
Don’t overthink it
You know something is wrong
I waited such a long time
To finally get right
Crack open that skull now
Let’s see what’s inside
Just don’t overthink it
Don’t overthink it for once
Don’t overthink it
Don’t overthink it for once
There’s internal bleeding
Like a car crash
Smashing my head ’round
It's as simple as that
And I waited such a long time
To finally get right
Take out that mean man
That wants to hide
Don’t overthink it
Don’t overthink it for once
Don’t overthink it
Don’t overthink it for once
Don’t overthink it
Don’t overthink it for once
Don’t overthink it
Don’t overthink it for once
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5. |
Make Me Sick
04:18
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I saw that picture that my friend just took of me and it made me sick
From that angle, I saw nothing that I could love
Just a bottomless pit
Am I overthinking it
Am I undernourished
I’m a puddle of a person
And I just started drinking again
I fight the urge but I can’t help it
Cause I’m convinced that this is the end
Am I overthinking it
Or am I undernourished
I can’t help myself I’m in too deep I’m incomplete
I can’t help myself I’m in too deep I’m incomplete
I saw that picture that my friend just took of me and it makes me sick
I’m so sorry that means nothing
An apology is just self-service
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6. |
Dead Weight
03:04
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I don’t want to love partially
I want the whole fucking thing, infinitely
Couldn't handle life with just a taste
I know I carry me down, human dead weight
You won’t reach out and grab it
It’s a dream that could never happen
Yeah, you can’t have this
It’s a sunflower on a canvas
Might look great but the scent is imagined
Should never have to do it alone
Please don’t try this at home
When you look out a window and think to jump
It doesn’t cross your mind who will clean you up
Someone does
Serenity now and from time to time
It’s never pointless to at least try
It’s classic - be patient
You won’t reach out and grab it
It’s a dream that could never happen
Yeah, you can’t have this
It’s a sunflower on a canvas
Might look great but the scent is imagined
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2 14-Inch Pies
04:22
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There’s a first and last time for everything
You never know which one it will be
Open up your skin
Put some sunlight to those scars
If I show you mine
Will you show me yours
I have an absolute need to please
And an insatiable desire to eat
That’s why I order 2 14-inch pies
Both for me disguised as a family
An unnecessary side of fries
So I can dip something
But self-knowledge avails us nothing
I'm gonna need some help here buddy
This is not a personality
It’s a poison and a disease
You have to pick out your medicine
You wanna treat the symptoms or the human
I have an absolute right to grieve
I guess I don’t have to do it publicly
That’s why I order 2 14-inch pies
Both for me disguised as a family
An unnecessary side of fries
So I can dip something
I’m gonna need help here, buddy
Gonna need help here, buddy
Gonna need help here, buddy
Gonna need help here, buddy
I overeat I undersleep
I overeat I undersleep
I overeat I undersleep
I overeat I undersleep
Just one more fucking slice and I swear to Christ I will be alright
I’ll pay for it in the morning
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8. |
Such Youth
04:18
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We talked about this
All that self-talk is negative
I don’t think I’ll ever quit it
Probably ‘cause I’m a fat fucking idiot
Such youth
Wasted
Such youth
Wasted
Anxious
It’s all about me
All this self-care is comedy
Make you laugh I hold the power
Therapy costs $200 an hour
Such youth
Wasted
Such youth
Wasted
Angry at myself
I hope you’re laughing now
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9. |
Cutest Boy Award
03:39
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Sometimes it physically pains me
To think of who I used to be
But I’d go back in an instant
To have hair again
Could you imagine
The confidence
Sometimes I actually shudder
When I think of the things I’ve done
All the people I’ve disappointed
But mostly I think about
The fun
I’m not the man I want to be
Not even hardly
I wanna wake up one morning
And be different and charming
And Confident
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In an Amtrak bathroom, I spilled my guts
But the toilet was broken and wouldn’t flush
I had to wipe my insides out of the bowl
And throw the towel out the goddamn window
Fairly certain I’m gonna die in this seat
Can’t ask for health can’t even breathe
Sweating through layers and I’m too quick to react
A self-inflicted panic attack
Angry at myself for just starting to see it
I’m the only reason
I call the shots, I pick these battles, I lose the wars
Should have learned my lesson 4 times before
Sadly I am doing my literal best
This is quite truly as good as it gets
Unless I just try a little bit harder
Nope
A part of me died inside that Amtrak car
New York to Philly isn’t even that far
But I felt empty enough to call it quits
Not bold enough to die too scared to live
Is this it?
Is this all there is
Is this it
It is
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11. |
Love Me, Me
02:42
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I don’t think I have capacity to love anyone but me
I wanna waltz with myself, get caught out in the rain, walk all night and kiss myself in the streets
I need to hold my own hand, left in right hand, and stop breathing
I gotta pull me in close, hold me tight, look in my eyes and see what you see
I’m desperate to love me
Love me, love me, love me, me
I’m desperate to love me
Love me, love me, love me
I’m desperate to love me
Love me, love me, love me, me
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Dylan Wise Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Dylan Wise thinks everything is a goof. He makes music that he says is unpretentious but get him talking about it and you'll find that hard to believe. He wrote this.
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